Guess who is back in the game….ME! Enough is enough, it’s time
to be a big girl and gain control over some aspects of my life. I know I am not
in complete control of my life in whole, God is, but I guess what I’m want to
achieve is a life with a little more structure and order.
School . I need to graduate and it needs to be sooner rather
than later. I don’t know what it is about school that makes me dig my heels in
the dirt and not get over and done with. I don’t know if it’s because I had a
bad experience regarding nursing, a career I was so sure I was ment for.
Perhaps it’s my indecision about what I want to be when I grow up, but the sad
fact of life is, I am grown up and I need to figure this out.
Organizational skills.
Yea I lack them and they need to honed in, no I need to find them. I
enjoy organizing events and parties, those kinds of things, but its cleaning
and organizing my personal space that I need work on. Maybe I have lazy
tendencies, or maybe I feel like it’s a waste of time because it will get
messed up in a matter of days so why even bother.
My weight . I get on my fitness kicks for a couple of months
where I will be strict with my diet and dedicated to exercising, but then I
will be dormant and not care for about two months. In those two months I will
completely reverse any progress I made, which of course will be followed by
self-loathing. Why can’t I make my habits stick and why can’t I be 100%
dedicated to getting this weight off once and for all.
Instead of wasting even more time, and waiting for New
Year’s to make these changes in my life, I’m making a Labor Day resolution.
Maybe it’s a more appropriate since it takes a lot of labor and effort to make
significant changes in one’s life, so here we go.
School. I will start and FINISH my classes. I will ask for
help when needed, will turn off the computer in order to do homework and will
leave a room if I cannot concentrate. I will finish what I set out to do, my
degree might not be appropriate for my career in the future, but since I do not
know what my career will be in the future, or it might be the perfect degree.
Organization. I will start with my closet, then move on to
my dresser, and I will finish one load of laundry at a time, put it away, and
then move on to the other load. I will make my bed everyday, and will make an
attempt to make my bedroom an organizational haven.
Weight. No more sweets in the house, if I want something
sweet like candy or ice cream I will have to exert more energy than walking
into my kitchen, I will need to go the store to get it. I will go to the gym at
least four times a week, for at least 45 minutes, and I will push myself each
time I go and remember what I ate that got my weight so unfirmly planted on my
arms, thighs, stomach and butt.
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| Back in the gym! |
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| Working out hard enough sweat is pouring down your leg = satisfaction |
